Dear you, the one who
left me over with some things that leftover
Thanks for a green
flanell shirt that leftover. At least I still can smell your body behind this
shirt. I once tried to give it back to you btw, but I even had no chance to
meet you. Not to meet you like our usual meetings, but only to give what belongs to you. I
once wish that maybe this shirt will be the reason why we meet in the future,
but it seems impossible since your negative respond on all of my text and
calls. I kept your shirt tidy on my cabinet. I hope you take your belongings
soon, dude!
Thanks for all of the
photographs that leftover. Dunno what to do, should i delete all those photos
or not. Every great memories were captured into those photographs, and there
was you inside. I really want to delete it all, but still i can’t. I missed all the place we were before,
the moment that we had went through before, and the memories that covered it.
Looking at your face at the photograph is really hurts btw!
Thanks for the memory
that leftover. I couldn’t ask them to go away. It’s not easy to move all the
memory of you from my amygdala into hippocampus. All the little things like the
way you open a dor for me, you brought
my heavy bag, and a cup of yogurt that you brought me on my period are packed
together into my amygdala. It’s to good to be forgotten but really bad to
remember anyway!
Thanks for the feelings
that once here in my heart. Thanks for the happiness, thanks for the laugh and
joy. I couldn’t ask you for more. Oh, i forgot. Thanks for the feelings that
made me felt so unwanted. I said this
not to blame you, but me. I blame myself and asking why i still have a
feeling of loving you that leftover even you left me behind like this? It
really kill me for sure!
Last but not least, I do
want to thank you for every lesson that leftover. Lesson to not to easily trust a guy who you know for only two days.
Lesson to know somebody deeply first before took a commitment to be together.
Lesson to accept that you and i were only human and we do make mistakes. We’re
not perfect; I was only a human who can’t read your mind so i don’t know how to
fix our relationship that broken till now, and you were a human who can’t
handle your ego and bring back our relationship like before.
Like what you did to me, leftover all of these shits, i do like like to do the same: Leftover my memories of you, all of my sadness, all of my feelings of you in 2016 before i start a new life in 2017. Let's start a new beginning without bringing back all those that leftover in 2016 and life happily in you and me own way!
